Hi there Nikita,
Congratulations on this stylish looking site.
Given that you are now a writer, would you consider writing an autobiographical book: you have had an unusual life, in many ways far removed from the experiences of most other people. And it seems that you have been able to climb out of a dark place and make a new start.
It would give you an opportunity to exorcise a few demons, and well as perhaps settling a few scores.
I'm sure a half-decent agent could find a publisher for this.